Why can’t I get into the season mood? Why can’t I feel green and red instead of blue? Where is the heart that loves to shop and give presents to the ones I love? A house fire killed two children last night. A man shot his children then killed himself. A woman crashed into a school bus – the kids are okay – the hospital did all they could for her but her family will face a New Year without her. No one is calling it a war but people are dying in Israel. Gunmen attacked commuters on their way to work – some lived – some died – some made it to work on time. Kids in Russia need socks, sweaters and Bibles – People in the USA need snow for Christmas – Downtown they need more beds at the shelter and the church folks need a place to park their brand new cars. And me, I think, I need our Lord Jesus Christ to help me stop feeling all alone.
The youth group at the local church is making baskets for the kids without dads and kids without dads are writing to Santa when they should be praying to God. Mothers without mates are crying themselves to sleep praying for her children and hoping Christmas doesn’t come. But when it does teens with baskets will answer her prayer. Then the teens will meet at the church to thank God for the opportunity to help. The ladies that meet every month, to drink tea, will hand out warm clothes at the soup kitchen and smiles to the homeless there. And me, I think, I need our Lord Jesus Christ to help me stop feeling all alone.
Life comes. Life is lived. The people we love pass into the good night. People come from all around with stories of how this one loved that one and did so without end. Lines of people – some who are some that will be and others that never will – are walking by the family, giving their condolences. An Angel is hovering overhead and another holds me up. Dad is holding up well, or maybe he has an Angel too. The girls are taking it hard and the boys don’t know what to do. The best friend is with grandma and both of them are looking at the ceiling or the Angel floating there. And me, I think, I need our Lord Jesus Christ to help me stop feeling all alone.
Why can’t I get into the season mood? Why can’t I feel green and red instead of blue? Where is the heart that loves to shop and give presents to the ones I love? Lord help me. Grant me the strength to make it past today and bring me joy. Of all the things upon this earth I need your Holy Spirit most and forgiveness for feeling this way. There is desire inside of me to be close to You and a fire burning for truth. People all around me are going on with life and some abundantly. And me, I think, I need our Lord Jesus Christ to help me stop feeling all alone.
Faith is the hope in things unseen, but Lord sometimes we need to see. I’ll keep praying and asking and seeking for God’s will. I’ll keep hoping that my faith will bring me past this and grow along the way. Faith is a gift from God and it doesn’t wait for Christmas day. It is given along the way as we pray and see prayers come true. I’ll pray for the people that we hear about on the news and thank God for the teens with baskets and women with warn clothes. And me, I think, I need our Lord Jesus Christ to help me stop feeling all alone.